gay apps are so weird. we’re all horny all the time but it’s so much mental effort and dealing with anxiety to actually meet someone on there for sex.
i ignore 90% of messages even from people im attracted to bc im terrified of coming off the wrong way and also im bad at flirting. some people i’ll have nice long conversations that i dont get tired of, but wont make any effort to meet this person even though i want to.
but then i could meet that same person at a bar and in 2 minutes of conversation i’ve already decided i am 100% willing to suck their dick right now bc i have a better idea of their vibe and energy that makes me relaxed. something that you dont get on those apps but no one wants to meet up in a social setting to feel each other out. it’s either u wanna meet to fuck or not at all.
i suggest meeting in a social setting and get things like ‘i dont like the gay scene’ which like. I could disect that and explain all the internally homophobic implications of that statement but fine. whatever. im just trying to make out & see if you’re not going to murder me so i ignore it. but they offer no alternative or try to meet me half way with a coffee shop or something. my pride makes me stand my ground bc i refuse to be putting 90% effort to only get 10% back but that obviously gets me nowhere bc people dont want to put effort.
im very willing to put myself in the vulnerable position of me on my back with my legs in the air, flushed cheeks, eyes glazed over, making breathy whimpers, with a solid dick leaking glistening drops of precum on my stomach, but u gotta make me feel kind of safe and expecting me to just show up at your place after never actually having met is kind of insane! but i do it anyway bc im not left with many options!
im making more of an effort to talk to strangers at bars and it’s progressively getting easier but there are so many more people i’d rather talk to if they’d just be willing to leave their house!
